Time for an Un-controlled Joy

My thoughts are often about control, self-mastery, and results. Over the course of my life I have thought if I followed a certain "code" I could guarantee my ambitions and secure my joy. Of course that line of thinking is silly. We really can't control outcomes, so phrases like "it's the journey that matters" takes on more meaning. While I operate with a goal in mind, I really do try to take time to absorb and appreciate the experiences and lessons learned along the way.

Here's the thing . . . I have noticed that the things that give me the most joy I couldn't anticipate, I couldn't predict, I couldn't foresee.

I am enchanted by this hydrangea bush in my yard. Just a year ago I was so disgusted with the bush that I was ready to dig it up and give it to Jacob, but then the most surprising and unexpected thing happened . . . it blossomed ABUNDANTLY.

I did very little. I'd given up hope that it would produce for me so I had a plan to give it a better opportunity for achieving it's beautiful potential.

Timing is delicate. Time should be respected and handled gingerly. Time is mysterious. How do we KNOW when the TIME is "right?" We can't control time, but we if we try to live in full attention we might discover the significance of the present moment.

I can't control anything, not even myself, but I will do my best, leave the results to God, and hold a little hope that I might bloom, abundantly, at some unexpected time.

How Love Blooms

This a button tree. Strands of buttons hang off the branches.



Click on the image to enlarge and read the name of the garden.

There once was a man and woman who wanted a daughter. The couple had many bright and beautiful sons whom they loved greatly, but their hearts felt that there was a special love inside them to give to a daughter. You see, the couple didn't merely hope for a daughter, they were certain they were supposed to have one. The couple was confused, until one day they realized that the girl was not to be born out of their flesh, but out of their souls. The husband and wife decided that they would adopt their daughter, rescue her from the probability of an unhappy life in China.
But there was another obstacles for the man and woman, they didn't have much money. However, the couple had a small parcel of land which they could sell.

Now there were many people who thought the couple should be happy with the children they have, and they thought it was God's will that they should have boys only, and that they shouldn't be greedy for more children. These thoughts made the couple sad. They weren't being greedy, they were very grateful and overflowing with blessings and love they knew God wanted them to share with a girl.

Selling off the small parcel of land was their only option. They asked the neighbor if she was interested, but she had all that she needed. But as time went on and no buyer came forward the neighbor began to think about the proposition.

The neighbor did more than purchase the garden; she named it after the little girl and gave her a secret gate into the garden so she could play there when ever she wanted.

PRAY!

Pray for God to give the gift of wisdom and knowledge to stop the flow of oil in the Gulf of Mexico.

Here, Hear

I haven't fallin off the face of the earth. I just fell. I am busy conceptualizing a new look for my life. Not exactly sure what that is . . . but change has come my way, and it is not exactly what I envisioned for my self . . . but I like the idea of change and I am busy cleaning-up and clearing-out parts of my life. I am eager to start some new art, but I have to take care of the physical distractions and current health concerns.
I have lost hearing in my right ear. Not sure exactly why. I have suffered nerve damage. I may have caught a virus. I grind my teeth out of stress, or I nash my teeth all day long out of stress.

Exciting things still present themselves, by I am also passing through fogs of confusion. Some days the train seems slow moving, but I think I am in a good place. Just need to be done with the yard sale. Once this is over I will inform you about the interesting things I have been doing -besides clearing out my house.