Thursday, December 30, 2010

Gifts from Jeff

Jeff gives funny gifts. The nieces and nephew got pretend sharp objects: a hatchet, cleaver, and a hooked knife. He gave me lottery tickets, a coupon, a nickel and a baseball card. He gave his dad hair (Jeff's pony tail cut after football season).


Package Decorations





Gifts of Comfort and Joy

I made J, Joel and Jennie coffee cup cuffs. Use fabric from my grandmother's rag balls.

I like to draw cartoons on the boxes I send. I find jokes and then I illustrate them. An elder at church told me the polar bear joke on my way into the service.


A Story

The Psychic Incinerator by Heidi D.
Adapted from an oral tale told by Ivy L.

New Year’s Day is when we ignite our own spiritual rebirth. Becoming resolute in our conviction for change requires thoughtful introspection. There is nothing like a moment of honest self-loathing to convince yourself that you need some REAL renewal. Look at yourself naked, get on the scales, check your calendar and count how many meaningful engagements you had that weren’t doctor visits, count how many articles of clothing you are holding onto waiting for the perfect engagement or the perfect weight, check the expiration dates of foods and medicines.

I’m prone to look at every day as the point for launching into the “better version of myself.” Summer is the time to discard the stuff I like to call “psychic burden.” I had a big painful purging of stuff this past summer. I called the event “Round One.” Rounds two and three will require more courage and resignation. Some of those old objects were tied up with hopes I was reluctantly giving up on. I discarded things as I was emotionally able, cutting my losses in hopes of not losing another thing, but instead gaining. It was at once liberating and sad.

It really was just Round One. I have many stinking psychic trash bags needing to be . . .

Here’s an interesting fact: the number of presents given in the Christmas carol “The Twelve Days of Christmas” is 364. The song is exactly one gift short of having a present for every day of the year. Now if you’re thinking that the one day without out a gift is Christmas Day then you might believe that the last and ultimate gift was given by God, in the form of his son, our Savior. If you’re thinking the one day without a gift is New Year’s Day, then you understand that this day, mystically measured by numbers and the heavens, gives us the gift to ignite our own spiritual rebirth.

In Marysville rebirth happens in a sacred space outside of town reverently referred to as Ash Field. Here the residents come on New Year’s Eve with objects that conjure some form of emotional distress.

It’s usually the old men who arrive first; they start the fire with dead wood pruned from their trees. Then others come with worn out box springs and mattresses, chairs that can no longer be trusted to support or comfort, old doors, and broken window frames.

It sounds like an ordinary bon fire, but then I haven’t mentioned Alastair. Mr. Alastair McGee, like a wizard in plaid, sanctifies the blaze with eerie notes squeezed from his bag pipes. He is the most militant artist I have ever seen. Marching like a victorious hero back from battle, he rouses in the congregants a super natural confidence. “Come liberate yourself from the shackles of the past! Shine an angry face towards the Future so It’ll FEAR to do ye harm.” Al brings an upholstered wing backed chair, it’s not for burning; it’s for resting his pipes and resting his arse. Sitting on a decorative side table is a heavy glass and a bottle of Scotch whisky. His wire-haired hound roams in and out of the shadows.

The fire is holy, and no one dares come to see it unless he comes to feed it. For if you come as an observer your sure to have double trouble in the next year.

One year Jenette Wilkes threw her wedding ring into the blaze after twenty eight years of marriage to a lying drunk. She got into her car, left town, and wasn’t seen again. James Newell burned all the love songs he wrote about his first girlfriend. Tom, principal of the local high school came and burned the only photograph he had of his father. He was told his father had died when he was an infant, but when his mother passed an aunt told Tom that his father was living happily fifty miles away a husband of thirty five years, the father of three, with eight grandchildren. He never wanted anything to do with Tom. Eddie the Bum came and burned his needles, liquor and cigarettes. On January 2nd he checked into rehab. When he was seen six months later no one recognize him. The dark shades of addiction were lifting off him like an old sticky finish on a table, revealing some unimaginable beauty beneath.

They come with letters, photographs, clothes, furniture, journals, homemade gifts, and jewelry. The objects were once sentimental mementoes of joyful times, but they were transformed into painful reminders of some lost hope, broken promise, or unfulfilled dream.

Some participants come loudly, proclaiming judgment. They condemn the object, they condemn the pain it represents, and they throw it in the fire cheering its destruction begging others to join in the celebration. Others come quietly, solemnly. Without a word they cast the lifeless bit of matter into the great psychic incinerator.

No one is there to stop you from expunging the hurt from your life. No one casts judgment on the sentence you hand down. Al never blinked when Greg Howard threw away his golf clubs. However, the year Amber came to resurrect her life from the hurt of a two-timing boyfriend a precedent was set. Amber came to proclaim. Her voice boomed an invitation the world to participate in her boyfriend cleansing ritual. “HERE are the movie ticket stubs from our first date! Here are the letters you wrote me when I was working at the camp, here’s the cork from the wine we drank in the park, HERE’s the STONE I saved from that night on the beach, HERE’s the cashmere sweater you gave me, here are the keys to your CAR and HOUSE, HERE are the pictures we took at the mall after you said you loved me! And here are the NUDIE PICTURES we took!” Just before hurling the photos Amber took a glance at the top photograph and saw her seductive self. “Damn I’m hot! Right?” She showed the photo to Al who smiled devilishly and nodded in agreement, “He’s a fool!” Amber sorted her photos out of the pile. She thought the world needed a record of her tempting beauty. Then she defiantly yelled, “I’m burning your pictures A******! You need Enzyte!” The screaming, chucking, and burning continued for ten more minutes. Every object was thrown violently into the flames. Amber seemed to have things under control.

Al sat nearby resting his pipes, providing no audible interference. “HERE’s the ****ing ring you gave me, and HERE are the g****mn Beanies Babies you gave me. “ Breaking all rules written and unwritten, Al with the speed of an angel dove and intercepted the box of babies rescuing them from the flames. Ah but the scales of justice had to be balanced! Al tumbled to the ground and Amber was freed from her hurt when she saw the Freed Willy under Al’s skirt. Al wasn’t shamed, but he couldn’t have looked more shaken if he had rescued a child from being struck by a car. Amber fell into laughter! When she recovered from the side stitches her soul was remedied. She gave Al a big kiss and hug, and skipped away smiling. Later, Al got an even bigger kiss from Mrs. McGee, a Beanie Baby collector.

While most offerings to the fire are of a physical nature some drunks come baring their souls about lost love and other regrets too horrible to repeat. They stare into the flames and confess like it’s their last day on earth. It’s easy recognize the type when you see them. They look near dead, like they’ve returned from a long walk through Hell. The wise person won’t stand in ear shot, unless they want to tremble with fear for the rest of their lives. Some stories witness to scars so deep that even the blue flames from the New Year’s Eve bonfire can’t make them less noticeable.

Gratefully, most folks are healed by the New Year’s Eve bon fire ritual.
No one knows exactly when the first fire was lit, or when the spring ritual related to the fire began. When the ground dries the serious gardeners come to Ash Field with buckets and shovels to collect ashes from the New Year’s Eve bon fire. The ashes are spread over their garden beds; feeding flowers that always become the strongest and prettiest. The winds do the rest of the work blowing the ashes across the countryside and into the neighborhoods. The energetic rains flush the ashes into the ground and then in June, like a miracle from the hand of God himself, lupines bloom in shades of tickled pink , cotton candy, true blue, heavenly blue, and variations of purple spanning from the moment just after sunset to the dark colored robes of Persian princes. When I see the spires of flowers dancing on the breezes like girls in fancy prom dresses, I am reminded that the growth of something beautiful is possible even after painful destruction.

Good Riddance 2010! Let the good begin!

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Silver Server


Randy and I stopped at an antique mall and I found this little silver server. It is a strange shape and size. It was originally made to serve bonbons, but I will use it to serve tartlets.
I'm thinking Gorgonzola Date Tartlets. Pictures and recipe in the coming days.

Sweet Things

Recent finds:
Our favorite Holiday Punch Recipe:
1 quart milk
2 12 oz cans of 7-Up
1 pint of softened peppermint ice cream
Mix well and serve.
The candy isn't as crunchy as I would like, but still very good.
Miranda turned two so I made her a cork doll portrait. Mom and grandma said it looks surprisingly like her.
Miranda and I made reindeer ornaments from her hand print. I can't wait to see them on her Christmas Tree. We wrapped them for mom and dad to open up early.

Lake Affection Bomb

Jeff had a party for a few his Adrian College football teammates. I made a Devil's Food bomb filled with Hudsonville Lake Affection Ice Cream. Lake Affection is a Limited Edition blue mint swirled with vanilla ice cream. I coated the chocolate cake with ganche and then dusted cooled icing with powdered sugar. The Bulldogs loved didn't leave a crumb behind. OH SO Yummy. Sorry for the blurry pictures, I get so excited about desert.


My Little Elves

HA! For the Christmas season Office Max provides a program to make music videos. Kadie put these together. We had loads of laughs trying out different pictures and selecting the right video.

Enjoy!


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Thursday, December 9, 2010

Need comfort and Joy

Life has been full of concerns: mammogram retakes (all is well for now), brother-in-law's cancer is spreading, mother had a mini-stroke (looks like she'll recover), my former-students are missing (horrors), and my niece's husband Joe passed away suddenly at age 36. I'm feeling numb.

Hearing, trusting, and responding appropriately have been the subject of my thoughts. I hear and acknowledge, but I don't always trust my feelings or what God is telling me, therefore I don't always respond appropriately. Also, I am guilty of under reaction rather than overreaction.

Speaking of not responding appropriately . . . I saw two movies recently that deal with autism. Those with autism have a difficult time reading emotions and responding appropriately. The two Movies were Adam and Mary and Max. I'm posting a photo from a foreign trailer because it shows both characters in the movie, but the film is English speaking. I really enjoyed Mary and Max. Quirky and poinent. Who hasn't felt at sometime in their life tlike they are on the fringes of society? And then to be struck or marked by something that makes your journey through life difficult, because we are just learning to be a empathetic society . . .

Little things . . .

These are my new mopping shoes I found at Meijer. I where them when I mop and I use them to scrub tough spots or to speed up the drying process.


This one of my "new" lamps and shades. I bought the lamp at the resale shop and I purchased the shade at Hobby Lobby. I bought the lamps and the shades at 50% off.

I haven't gotten around to posting about the dips I made for Thanksgiving. I made a white bean, roasted red pepper, and roasted pea puree. All three are super yummy.

Way to go Meijer for making pumpkin ravioli. I served it with sage walnut butter, a recipe I found in the October 2010, Food Network Magazine.

1/4 c. balsamic vinegar
2 t. honey
1 bay leaf
2 packages of ravioli cheese or squash
6 T. unsalted butter
1/3 fresh sage leaves
1 c. roughly chopped walnuts
3/4 grated Parmesan cheese
Cook ravioli according to directions.
Combine vinegar, honey, and bay leaf in small saucepan until syrupy, 4-5 minutes. Cover to keep warm.
Melt butter in a large skillet, add the sage and walnuts. Cook until the nuts are toasted about 3 minutes. Increase heat to high and add a ladle of pasta water. Add ravioli and toss to coat, add water add needed. Remove from heat and toss with Parmesan cheese. Serve with balsamic syrup drizzled on top. YUMMMMMM

Monday, November 15, 2010

Part 2 Gingerbread with Pumpkin Ice Cream Sandwiches


My sister-in-law gave me this nifty mini rolling pin. I used it to make little gingerbread pumpkins which I filled with the pumpkin ice cream.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Hudsonville Pumpkin Ice Cream


Hudsonville Ice Cream comes from Holland Michigan. It is some of the yummiest, creamiest ice cream available. They have a few limited editions available at the moment. Including this wonderful Pumpkin Ice Cream. The ice cream begs to be served with imagination. I put some of mine between my special gingerbread. My gingerbread is ultra soft and soulfully spicy.

I'll report later if these autumnal ice cream sandwiches make the grade during this true Indian Summer. It was in the low 60's today, and down-right hot in the sun if you were working.

This is a pic of Randy and me with Jeff at his LAST home game on November 6. It was a sad day for us. He isn't a starter, but he played. He hopes to be a coaching assistant next year. He has an analytical mind and understands the esoteric nature of the game. Yes he has a mullet. His hair was in cornrows, a fro etc. He likes to keep it interesting. I say get wild with it while you can you'll be growning up soon enough.

Monday, November 8, 2010

The Veteran I Knew was a Loyal Soldier to . . .


This year marked the tenth anniversary of my father's death. He has been on my mind a lot.

My family takes a lot of pride in my father's military career. They went with him as he zigzagged across the country and to Europe as he served and pursued a military career. Beyond visits to the post to buy groceries at the commissary and goods at the PX, I have no memories of life connected to military service. But I feel better off for knowing the man my father became after his military service and I know that his time in the Army helped to form the man he became.

When I think of my father I think of loyalty.

He was fiercely loyal to his country. In addition to his military service he was active in politics and served on the boards of many community organizations.

I knew him to be a soldier for Christ. He was fiercely loyal to his church and dedicated himself to cultivating a spiritual life. While he was a man of unique character (too few like him these days) he had his foibles. He had his sorrows and struggles which he owned with humility, and then tried to correct in the ways he knew best.

In the last years of his life he took the time to babysit my children. Those moments allowed us to have some spontaneous and soulful discussions over those things troubling me or him. Sometimes after bearing his soul he would apologize for burdening me with his concerns. I suppose I might have had a surprised expression on my face, only because I was feeling honored by his willingness to disclose his thoughts to me.

Kadie was only person I talked to on October 21. She quietly sent love to me. Like her grandmothers she remembers the important dates (I'm still a fledgling in such matters). Like her grandfather, Kadie is fiercely loyal to friends, family and God. Like him she is competitive, hardworking, and holds a deep abiding faith.

My father was given religious training growing up, and I once thought his military service, helped him to be courageous for Christ. It made him able to confront the spiritual enemy. Perhaps it was the other way around. Perhaps it was his faith in Christ that helped him to be a good American soldier. Certainly he was a better soldier at the end of his life, following his Commander courageously into death, knowing the battle was ending and that peace waited ahead.

Friday, October 29, 2010

HA HA HAlloween

Kids if I embarrassed you, well I'm sort of sorry . . . I'm over it.

Go have some scary flashbacks here.

I have been thinking a lot about fears lately. Fear is beneficial in that it protects us from harm. But some fear is irrational, can result in stress, anxiety, phobias, avoidance, neglect.

I have a fear of Numbers - Measuring and sums or bottom lines seem constricting. I do have a favorite equation that is considered a paradox. In the equation one can see our relationship to GOD. It is a sacred equation.

I have a fear of Wasting Food - It seems unconscionable to waste food. However, sometimes throwing away food points to the Divine. There are times when food seems so miraculously abundant that it reminds me of Jesus feeding the five thousand. We seem to throw away more scraps than food brought in to share.

I have a fear of Wasting Time - I think people don't have a healthy respect for time.

I have a fear Appearing Ostentatious - I abhor inflated ego and appearing like I care more about stuff than people.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Snapshots of the Prosaic

Yeah, I know this blog looks like a lot of fluff. I don't spend a lot of time ruminating over deep philosophical issues, hashing over my griefs, and voicing my concerns. I do that off the page - in small doses. Fact is God has given me the eyes and heart to appreciate the little things. There is only now and NOW provides me with sweet moments.

Today I took a walk with Jake and Aireanna down Front Street. It is the prettiest street in town this time of year.

On our walk we saw Kitler. He's not very friendly.

Jake brought over one of his new belt buckles for me to see.

My cat must have had some guilt because she jailed herself in my planter.

I forgot to share that I went raspberry picking a few weeks ago. So I can have raspberry, Asian pear, candied walnuts, and blue cheese on my salad. Yummmmmm

I found some old lunch sack puppets I made of a Pharisee, Timothy, and Paul. I love their feet.

I painted these old gears to use as bases for my bowling ball "jack-o-lanterns." These make me happy!

Gwen gave me the coolest decorative eggplants to hang on my porch. They are really elegant.
Yay for fall.

Monday, September 27, 2010

Paw Pawesome

This entry is dedicated to Mikki the fearless eater.
Last week Jen showed me a paw paw. She bought it a farmers market. It has a floral quality, slight banana taste, and a custard texture. The skin is tough like an avocado, but not as thick. I was so impressed by them that I went and bought some this weekend.

There are several seeds in the fruit that are like a fave bean.


The flesh is golden yellow and can be mashed and used in cookies or muffins.

The fruit is native to North America and is high in protein. Go to here to learn more. There is even a paw paw festival in Ohio. The graphic advertising the festival is very nice.
The fruit reminds me the life is full of surprises if your eyes are open. Also, it is an odd and sad truth that we live unaware of richness of our environment. I realized this a few years ago when I learned about Michigan's lizard the Five-lined skink, the Marble salamander, and the spotted turtle (all endangered).

Paw Paw Cookies
Pre-heat oven to 350.

3/4 c mashed paw paw flesh (seeds and skin removed)
1/4 cup soft butter
1/2 c. brown sugar
1 egg
1 cup flour
1/2 t. baking powder
1/2 coarsely chopped walnuts

Mix butter and sugar. Blend in egg. Mix in flour and baking powder. Mix in the paw paw mash. Finally add walnuts. Drop by teaspoons onto greased cookie sheets.
Bake for 12 min.

A rare and wonderful treat!

Sweet September


My one year old Autumn Drift clematis is blooming. The little white stars have a delicate sweetness.

The overcast sky and cool days keep my morning glories blooming for more than twenty four hours (through the night!-I think they enjoy looking at Jupiter. Hope you have you been noticing Jupiter). These longed lived blooms turn a lovely shade of violet in their creases, a quality not seen in those that have a few hours of blooming.

Aireanna (the school kid) came over and collected some buckeyes for her mom who needed "a lot." She intends on feeding them to the squirrels.

Super Wonderful

I went and saw my girl the weekend of the 18-19th. I hadn't seen her play soccor since she was in eighth grade. Although her team lost on Friday it wasn't a demoralizing loss, they weren't expected to do well against St. Scholastica. MLC scored first, but the final was 1-2. They went into Saturday's game feeling pretty good about the close game on Friday, they ended up winning 3-1 with Kadie making TWO of the goals (the first and the last). OH MY GOSH!!!! Such a perfect time for me to go. I miss my girl so much, but she is having fun in Minnesota, which makes me feel good.
Why God can't a decent picture of me be taken?



This is the fancy car I was renting, a Traverse. I called him "Mr. Big." He has lots of nice features including a camera for reverse moves.
Jen gave me a Led Zeppelin anthology to listen to. So the time in my car was nice.
I discovered that Jack White and Robert Plant have a similar kind of verve in their vocals.